Yesterday was full of frustration and madness!.i am going crazy as my head is feeling very warm and my neck too.My sorethroat is very worse yesterday.
and imagine i need to handle by asking arrival time using my mouth and my voice to speak?.
its painful for almost half a day.and yet i had calls from two different people and i need to talk to them in an anger way and raising my voice louder.
After one call , another call came.
both calls are quarrel which is making my sorethroat SUPER PAINFUL.
i feel like crying okay?.both of them does not even have the little concern about my throat. :(
the only person who cares for my throat is me and myself.
Now , i just want to have more money with myself that i save.can't i?
Now , i am all depending on my own.
Now , i handle things all by myself.
Now , i am only 17.and is this what a 17 old girl should be?
sometimes i felt so stress.i dun know why.
in my mind now i only have work.nothing other than that already.
for relationship wise , i think i should take a rest.
Baby , i dun mean anything for this alright?.i just feel that i need some rest really.
sometimes i think that study makes better choice.but wait , who is gonna give me the money to study if i really want to?.
it dun come from anyone.
it all comes from me.
me , me , me & lastly is also ME.
Baby , i am not trying to be stingy with you honestly.i agree that last time i dun feel pain about money because all the money is from my father.but now is different.i have to work it and earn it myself.everything it comes from myself.now den i seriously realise how hard and difficult it is to earn it by urself.i believed we always argue about money issue.thats why i gonna say that we shall stop this arguing and its gonna to be the last argue.
Baby u must knw.
-Not i want to be stingy
-Not that i am not willing to spend money on you.
-This is all not what i meant.
you should know my character .i believed even is my half character u should know.
am i such a person to you?.
i know i have ever requested you to buy things for me but i believed those dun accumalate up to almost hundreds.
but when you told me that you wanted to buy a handphone i buy because its ur birthday present.the amount is alot to me.but i will still buy because you are my boyfriend and nothing else.
yesterday i was utterly dissapointed with you.you really make my mood go mad.
i feel like crying out yesterday but i didn't.i hold it back.
i dun know what to say ler.
i just need one listening ear to let me voice out all my unhappiness will do.
i dun need any comments from anyone.
i just want to be myself.the way i am nw.
any listening ears around? :)
Labels: moodless.screw it all.
