Recently read so many sad lifes of my love ones.
Why girls are always so deep into love while guys are just hoping around?.
Today found my long lost JieJie .
She is the Best Jie i ever had in my life.
cos when i fall , she is the one who encourage me and picked me up from the ground.
Nobody can be like her.<3.

i feel so sad for her.But at the same time nobody wish all this could happen.
all the best to you.(:

My ownself also cant handle , so i cant say much also.
Now i know why my stomach cramp like hell.
BECAUSE , .....My mens is saying HI to me .____.

♥ 1:24 AM

Now i realised that even though you cannot really have me in heart , you cannot really treat me as a princess , i would rather choose my freedom , my lovely friends , my everything than you.
i already have waken up from my cage , free from my lock that i have been in for 1 year 5 months.
Now i have my own goal , what i want in life and i will save enough money and go for it.
not much time to dilly dally about what L.O.V.E is.
I admit i couldnt leave you , but i want to have back my freedom and be a happy girl.
Like what my dearie say , if i want to be with you i should accept , and not to complain.
I believe i can give up one day my friends , i just need time & yupp you all should know what i meant. :)
Dearie your words are right.i am seriously awake.thanks My dear :)
Although we sometimes quarrel about unhappy things , my i am glad you are still always helping me here. :)

Now my stomach damn damn PAIN .CRIES.!

♥ 12:25 AM

I cannot accept what you did to me in past , but i accept afterwards just because i love you.
Last time i just let this relationship be , now i dun even want to bother about you anymore.
But it came to my suprise that you repeated it again.when is this going to stop?.can you please fucking tell me?.
you said that you want to marry me?.marry me with all this shit?.no thanks.i am still young.
By adding someone into a conversation , you told me is just because it is fun.do you know what yourself is talking about?.you still think that i am still in my secondary school world to let you cheat on me ?.sorry i am not.you made me so hard to believe in you.i find it so difficult now.
In your arms , i hardly breathe.
In your hugs , i scared to fall asleep.
On your laps , those hurtful pain started to say hi to me again.
In my mind , i find everything so difficult now and yesterday i wanted to let it go.
when i said that i wanted to let it go , you told me you dun wished to.
whats the point and holding me back and torture me with those rubbish that you have done to me again and again.
i want to escape from this love is because we dun belong to each other at all.
My limits are up.Now you said you will listen to whatever i say from yesterday ownwards.
Hence readers , please remember about this sentence he said to me and be my witness.
if he ever disobey me , we will just jolly well broke off.
even if he dun wish to , i will just be the most fucked up person in this world.

Labels: A love story which is not mine

♥ 10:04 PM

Alright , i just came back from chalet.kinda tired.didn't get enough REAL sleep actually cos SOMEBODY irritate me!.grr.you know who you are uh!.

Saturday:
Saturday went out with meimei .i know her names sound funny.but she is a funny person too.!
Being kind enough , she treated me lunch because i am damn broke liao.getting crazy with this kind of penniless life.Feeling little stress about life though.went to toa payoh den towards jurong point.went to meet her friend there and they buy plenty of sushi.and we ate at the coffeshop.Afterwards , i was feeling damn tired already , waiting for my bf to book out at the same time too.and when i reached home , he is home not long after i came back. :D.


Sunday :
Sunday went out with my boyfriend ,his father and one of his brother to zoo.woke up @ 9 and get washed up and prepare ourselves to yishun interchange to take bus.it seems rather exciting as i haven been to zoo for damn long i think.laughs :D.we walked for around 2 to 3 hours.we didn't really complete walking the whole zoo. because we are too tired.when it is 12 plus we went to have our lunch at there which is kfc.taste yummy!.haha.after eating we took bus home and home sweet home ~:P.
when it reaches at night , i went to meet my dearie and boyster @ chai chee road.put our stuffs down at boyster house , we went to slack till morning 9 and me and my dearie took bus to chalet.and after that when we reach we went to the service counter and they say need to wait till 2:30 den can check in.we were damn shag like hell.after that boyster ,mona , dan reach pasir ris to find us.we sat at the mac there like some stupid blur people.everybody was tired and sleep and rest at there.Suddenly , some misunderstanding starts the fire between my dearie and boyster .but dan settle it so its fine and when its 2:30 we went to check in and start resting. :)


Monday:
Monday everyone is at chalet behaving like some crazy people.Mona , dan and boyster went to escape to play.me and my dearie were in the room.some friends came that night.we watched ghost show together and after that was quite bored and fall asleep afterwards and its tuesday.the actual day that they are celebrating..

Tuesday:
Tuesday we got ourselve woke up but due to our tiredness we woke up nearly afternoon.when the times hit 7 , many people start to come in the chalet.we had many funs and laughters.but i have alot of irritateness!!eversince yangyang came i dun have any peace in the chalet.i want to sleep also hard.zz.but its very fun.this the first time i stayed overnight at chalet.laughs!.after the chalet bus home today.and now resting and blurring @ home as bf is not booking out today.yawns.waiting for my pay to come.=__=

Labels: Sometimes it feels like its the feeling again

♥ 1:45 AM

Yesterday went out with my new meimei. :D.
she was a sweet girl indeed!;). throughout the whole outing we were chit chatting about teenager's relationship stuffs.we had our hearts talked out eventually.so sad to heard that now a days all the guys are poor freak .waiting for girls to feed them like a baby .but seriously is like more worse than a baby .
hope i can have my admin job soon.i just need a stable job to stable down my life.
for my own rel ationship , i dun expect much anymore.just treat it my fate for my love is always like this?.
Eversince when i am 16 till now , it seems that my love life hasn't change anything.
its still the same , so pathetic , so hard to have a sweet love.everything just feels the same to me.
when can i have a love that i really wanted?.even this little request haven came true since im 16.

Labels: unless you are her.

♥ 11:26 PM

i dun need the best from you.
i dun need the money from you.
i dun need the pityness from you.
i dun need the insult from you.
i dun need the cries from you.
but dun make me dun need the love from you one day.

Seriously , i think my limit is somewhere around there.
i dun see if there is any need to be together if you want to tell me about PAST.
or the wrong things i have done.you go and think twice about it yourself at least i have tried my best to do something to save this relationship.what have you done?.
Now what i know is i cannot let go , but i will learn to.
Maybe in your eyes i had never been important at all , i had never been as sweet as anyone at all.sometimes i do not understand why i am doing sacrifices for you just because for the sake of i am doing it.i really do not see any point.or is it seriously true that only slim girls can hold onto a guys heart.sometimes it seriously makes no sense at all.

Last time ,
those blames ,
those nasty words,
those scoldings that came out from my mum's mouth to my ears i didnt complain anything.everything i just say that is me.everything only a word called me.
but now i wouldn't do anything for you since you dun appreciate it.
regrets will be kissing to your faces like i once said to all those jerks.
because in my eyes they are just jerks.from today onwards i shouldn't have any dinner or what and i shall try and see what is the difference between fat and skinny girls benefit.

Labels: it aches

♥ 10:06 AM

My Life~
Sorry readers that it has been so damn long since i last updated my blog.but due to the time that i am lacking.so thats why.get back home after work.feeling very exhausted.seriously.as i have only slept for 4 hours last night. These few months i really learn alot.be it love , be it family , be it whatever it is.Let start from my family first..
when i was small i always think that is never enough for me , but when i grow my thinking suddenly changes alot.Maybe i dun have fate to be in a happy family like what others is having now.my fate is just being alone.work and sleep.In my family life i really dun see anyone seriously.when i needed help , its from myself , everything come from my bare hands.i never felt so hard and tough before.
And....in my whole life , i never come across such a messy love , headache love ,and heartache love.
Money is important to everyone.none of us being human beings want to be realistic about money.we are something to be force to face reality.

To My Boyfriend:
you know what?.sometimes i wish you could just be matured more.
you know what?.sometimes i wish you can concern me more.
you know what?.sometimes i wish you can love me more than anything else.
you know what?.sometimes i wish you can stop and really stop lending urgent money from me.
you know what?.sometimes i wish you will say that you can treat me more better than her.
you know what?.sometimes i wish you will say and really not just say but prove with actions.
you know what?.sometimes i wish you can tell me that i am the most important to you.
you know what?.sometimes i wish ypu can stop giving me empty promises.
when can all these Stop?

♥ 7:35 AM