why things became like this?really so confused .
i am having headache and spinning right now.
Can i know?.i am feeling unwell now.
Am i still the one ?. i am not sure .
does your kisses meant something?
or just nothing?.
i doubt.

♥ 9:28 AM

I want to think no more.
I want to hate you.
I want to avoid.
I want to forget.
But how?.Its a year , not a month.
when we meet it seems nothing happening.
it seems normal.its makking me more and more confused.
Each and everytime i want to cry , i held on.
i will just pretend there is nothing happen.
You are not beside me this time for so long.

I thought maybe i leave something will change.
you said that you will love me more better than before.
is it so?.i dun think so.Countless time i try to keep myself busy with my stuffs.
i cant seriously.i dun even know what are we now.

I can get over you are once the guy i loved so much.
i cannot believe that i treat you so good yet you can maybe just pretend like is a must?.You loved her i believe.

Joey says that i love you too much already so it makes me to becoming like this.
i cant change my mouth that i need to call you by name.
i already used to everything and used staying at your house.

you say you want to restart with me.
can i know how?.
by like this?.
i really dun know seriously.
why not you teach me?

Once upon a time you told me that you wun be like my ex bfs throw me aside and walked a short rs.
yes , you did walked long together with me.but so many things happen between us.
Looking back those post that i had made , is always sweets with sugar.nt bitter at all.

My heart still have you.how about you?.
if i had a chance i will prefer not to step into this rs so deeply and put so much into it.but is too late , i already have stepped into it deeply.


i always want to proudly say i have a bf who loves me so much,
proudly say that my bf dote on me alot,
proudly say that you are always my one and only.
proudly announced that you will never leave me.
But now i dun have the strength for it.

Labels: 你不知道的事

♥ 8:21 PM

♥ 8:21 PM

Look back to the past.
From the start when i know you.
i am always the girl that you wanted .listening to whatever you want and everything.
i am always the girl who helps you wash your clothes at times.
i am always the girl who will give you money when you needed.
i am always the girl who sleep at your side so soundly.
i am always the girl who eat mac with you in the midnight.
i am the girl who done so many things for you as your gf for this 1 yr plus when you are in army.

i admit in the past i am the most
-Understanding
-Caring
-most in everything.
i love you more than i love my parents seriously.

You are the first guy for everything i had.
i loved you for who you are.
poor or rich without saying much.

if things din happen till today like this i will still prefer to restart with you and just lead a life and do what a girlfriend should do.
but things aint like this.i know i am a very soft hearted girl.
Maybe i am used to be loved by you thats why,
but now i think you can give your love to her den.
anyway hope you can have a good ending with her,and your wish will come true. :)

although i still dun understand why.

♥ 8:59 AM

i feel that we are drifting.
u lead ur life and i lead mine.
whatever it is.jus let it be.laughs!

♥ 5:14 AM

In the past i used to have you.
the one for everything and anything.
Now i feel that is drifting even though it looks so near.
Closer than past?.no.
whatever is past is already the past.
You said that you liked her , why dun you just go?.
my dearie joey toh ling yan say that i make myself priceless.
and my friends were disappointed about me.
i think i should at least do something about it.
Maybe in my previous post i cant compared to her for anything.
now the only thing i can do is to play along until we are totally what we used to be.
i believed is going to end in no time and nowhere.
cause i know that no girls can accept their bf when his heart is liking another girl.
am i right?.
Today i went work alone rather than my bf is accompany-ing me.
he is meeting the person that he like when i was working.
i feel sad , i feel everything.but he just heck care.
i really dun understand.
if i really change to be the best gf i did once in a past now , i think i am the most priceless girl.
but i won't do that.

Lastly , joey toh ling yanthanks for all my friend who is been together with me when i need hug ,shoulders and everything.i hope for today what i am going to change to wun disappoint u all.

♥ 2:28 PM

like what i once said , if you think she is better than me go ahead,
if you think she can give you good life go ahead.
if you think she can be as faithful as me go ahead.
if you think she is prettier than me go ahead.
if you think she is more understanding than me go ahead.
if you think she treats you like a king go ahead.
if you think she loves you damn fucking much go ahead.
if you think she suits you go ahead.

if you think i am nothing better than her.
than i rather you choose her and i will leave.
Definitely i wun stay.stay for nothing.

Labels: i realised .

♥ 1:19 PM

Today went out alone like an idiot.
went to work
headed to slimming centre @ jurong east.
even i come out the receptionist also say i slim down le.
i think is self effect slim down ba?.idk.haha
very broke nao.but i want to get rich soon ley!;x

Baby , i believed i can handle this ,take all this with me.
like what i say i will be the most cheerfulest girl like how i once did.
let me brian wash , let me forget those pain you gave me.
let me remember only your gd and your lovely part.
thats all.
Not going complain anymore cause like what my close friends said before.
if i choose this , i have to accept this , i have to keep my mouth shut.
This the road i choose , hard also i am going to walk.

♥ 4:33 AM

♥ 7:44 PM

in your heart , am i the girl who stand the fullest part?.
i doubt so.
Your worries , Your care , Your concern , Your hugs , Your like , Your love , Your everything it seems so far from me.
Yesterday night i force myself to sleep.when i can feel a stone which is pressuring my heart to ask me to pour out everything and jus tear.but i didn't.its really feeling very uncomfortable.
Yesterday when i was sleeping halfway you came back home.out of the sudden , you told me old shoes are nicer than new shoes whereas before that you say that what IF only you have choosen me?.
before i call you your msg was asking me to leave you alone.
Now you are telling me that you only love me
whats more you want me to do?.
whenever i want to cut of this point , let go our rs .
you said that you dun want to regret and make a wrong choice.
i really still cannot get over the fact that you like or once liked her before.
Before you came back home you tell me that how i expect you not to miss her.
and this is not the best part.best part is you said that if you want me to ask u stop loving her or even like her you can , but you still want to be friends with her just because you once said that she treat you like a big brother.you know is pressuring my heart.
you make me feel far from you.you make me want to totally forget you.

♥ 11:25 PM

Labels: ;/\

♥ 12:11 AM

i once loved you so much.
i once thought that having you is the most happiest thing in my life.
i once thought that being by your side and waiting for you to finish ns is the most greatful thing as a gf should be.
i once had a boyfriend who can tolerate all my nonsence , my ups , my downs.
-whom been through together with me and understand me.
-whom wun leave me alone staying at home waiting
-whom wun say the word break for the first time.
-whom wun make me cry so badly without bothering me.
-whom actually feel the importance about me.
but now is all gone.
Forever in your heart you only remember i am in the wrong , i am in the fault , i am the cause of it.
You said that you will cool down and after you drink u will be back the same.
when i cry you hugged me and say that you are sorry.you wun let me feel alone anymore.
After all those quarrels we had made really makes me cry like hell in whatever place i am in.
i really dun bear , but at this point already what i can do.
every of my frens always whisper to my ears telling me my bf is very sweet.loves me alot.
but in fact his love towards me is not as much in the past as what he told me.
i really dun know what i can do to salvage this relationship anymore.
so i think i will just leave.

iloveyou.

♥ 10:20 AM