Simplicity.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Today went photoshoot.there are still more/.but lazy to show.haha!

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Saturday, March 27, 2010

life is bored.hope to get a work soon!

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Sunday, March 21, 2010

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Saturday, March 20, 2010

Everyone have their fault , everyone learn when they fall.Many people cried for their loved ones many time before , Many People also do silly decision because they love someone deeply.when i am trying so hard to be the best of me like my closest friend joey ,you let me feel that my whole heart just left my soul away.In my eyes , i always make wrong decision , but during the day we were together , you make me feel that i made the right decision.right to love , right to care , right to concern.But sometimes , i dun know how much i can do to be the very best gf you ever wanted.I feel that you already have doted me lesser , feeling the importance of me , is no more there.Maybe you din realise , but i do.Just that night , you make me feel like crying and just say goodbye to everyone.Once you told me those words i still remember.be it you said that i am stingy , childish and all those bad point of me.but you know i am trying to make a change in it.perharps you dunno.Maybe one day i just had to be like my closest friend , giving everything that you need , is that what you want isit?.or what?.stingy is always what you know about me , and what you think about me.Couples shouldnt count money , shouldnt for all these.but you know sometimes i wanna have a saving for my own it seems hard because i have been spending all day long.but i dun mind for all these.at least i din ask you to lend from me.in my life of 18 years , i have never spend any money on guys before , till the day i met you , you are the one who let me do that.Maybe you think is a must , it should be like that.i always do something for you and i just request something small from you , can you do it for me?.sometimes i think that the picture is too blur for me to see , and just let whatever the things be and to be there.Once Upon a time , not long ago , i betrayed your feelings.now you complaining why i din post out about how bad i treated you.are you sure?.do you want to see my previous post what i post about it?.or you would like to ask my friend about it.you know no matter how you treat me i am always still here , no matter how hurting those words are , i am always here.you know or not?.Sometimes , i feel that you really dun have the heart to continue , dun have the heart to carry on.you really made me have those thinking in my mind.what are those msges you sended me for.isit because of some reasons for you to hold on me.not that girls want to think so much.its because those actions you do make me think so.maybe in your eyes all these are just foolish act.but is ok.One day maybe i wil understand.i always like to use the same old phrase .somtimes Lies hurt more than Facts.seriously.

Soon , i am gonna find a job when i get some money again, or maybe to take my allowance for transport.i blame my parents , but it also wun make any difference for that.this is all by myself.i am big enough for everything.

Road i choose , to be with who.no matter how difficult it is , i will still walked myself and tell myself to blame no one.thats my life.

THE END-

Labels: do what ever you can to make me become what i am.

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Thursday, March 18, 2010

Yesterday went out with my beloved sister to woodlands.its been so freaking long since i last saw her.miss her damn much.haha.we went for our singing session.i almost lost my voice because i have been singing for two days already.Feeling so bored at home nw.yesterday went to buy newspaper and now i am starting my job seeking.haha.awaiting for my baby to book out! ^^

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Monday, March 15, 2010

babyireallyloveyou.
Baby , From the start we know each other we have never give up before although sometimes we feel that we do not suit each other.Baby , dun always cry for me because it makes my heartache you knw?.i will try to be back the very good gf that i have once been.maybe is a bet between us that how long we can endure.my life , i will choose and wun blame anyone for it.now i just want to lead a normal life .i dun expect anything from you.
When the first time you forgive me and yet you make me feel so sad at the same time for your changes..i hope your love wouldn't be lessen for me.if noti will be very sad if i know.in my heart , i will always love you.050109.: D

Labels: baby i love you

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Sunday, March 7, 2010

Mistakes i once made , i know it meant very serious to you.

No matter hw heavy those raindrops are , you are just feeling nothing about it.

Past we were sweet , Past we were loving , Past we can't leave each other.

To me , now is just so different.Maybe you can't feel , Maybe you thought i think too much about it.

But seriously thats how i feel.Now perhaps you feel disguisted about me.Perhaps you kept thinking thousand times of why.Every second , my mind ask myself , why , why , and why.sometimes it seems so funny you know?.maybe is just so funny.Once upon a time i said that i will remember every single words you told me and you taught me.yet , you still use words that make my heart shrink.from the 10th to the ending and landed on the ground.

Now , you said you want me be your wife & i was wondering if that day would come.i was wondering if thats the fact.everything i just wonder and listen into my ears and nothing else.i am feeling down where no one can understand about.

Can you please tell me what your cry means to you?.

what your sorry means to you?.

what your heartpain means to you?.

what does all this means?.

i know that by telling everyone hw much i love you , you will find that is a topic that you would love to laugh at. am i right or am i wrong?.

Your heart doesn't change.

Your words change.

Your action change.

Your mindset change.

Your sorry change.

Your cry change.

To me , more or less is a change.

when i can see those sunlight you once gave me.

when can i see the first time you.?

when can i feel the same you?

Cycena life , same script , different cast.

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Friday, March 5, 2010

Now everyday with My beloved boyfriend

he always love to lie to me that he is going to book in when he is not.haha!.but i love it.because its a suprise to me.how i wish he could stay outside and at home everyday just to accompany me 24 hrs.Sometimes when he is not beside me , i feel so empty.when he is fierce to me , it makes me cry.although i dun cry it out , but i cry in my heart.Sometimes i even wonder , am i important?.or am i just a companion to you?.Today we woke up and went to eat , you throw the menu at me when i did not want to answer your question.it makes me feel so different.yesterday you said that we drifted apart , isit true?.words that you once said to me , it always makes me feel so important so stress.My dearie told me that i am wrong but that does not mean i dun have a choice.but for me , i still feel that i am still at the same point.i dun wish to move at all.yesterday when i sang those songs with those words, it makes me feel so hurt .i dun know why.i really dun understand when i can stop feeling like this.after 4 yrs , once again i feel like this.once again i felt so sad.really and its true.

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Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Baby , you know when i saw you cry , you know how much it aches my heart.all those things i ever done to you make me feel so pain deeply.when you look in to my eyes and say you didn't want to do this to me , i felt that i had just jump down from the first floor to the end ground.it makes me feel even worse.after that day , till now you still can say four words to me [Bibi, i love you].i am so glad that i still can hear those words from your mouth that is whispering to my ears.those four words makes me think alot.when i ask you , why would you still want me as your girlfriend ?.you told me is because we made a promise that we wouldn't leave each other.i was shocked that you still remember at least this you know.because in my eyes , you are always the one who doesn't remember anything that you promised me.But one thing i should be glad is , you are still with me.when i was in secondary 2 , i thought after once it will be better , but now i think that i am worse than that.Baby , still remember when the first time we met?.it was so sweet , so cute.when you first time held my hand up the escalator.you brought me to sing song at the 8th floor.after that i went back your house.and this is how our love start.in this relationship , we betrayed each other before , we hugged together and cried before , we promised each other not to leave before , we gave each other promises before , we shared out pain together before , we share happiness before.and many many things we did together.in my heart , i will never forget baby.i just hope that you finish your army so that you can have more time with me.yesterday , i was thinking not to let you see my hand.cos i know you will heartpain for me , but i really dun want you to feel heartpain for me .cos i think afterall its not worth.dun ask me why.cos i dun even know myself.when you asked me why i changed so much , i really dun know myself.but now i only know i wanna be with you.and be the gf you always think of about me.and this is true.Lastly , i love you baby.; )

-THE END-

Labels: after the rain....its still raining.

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Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Recently many things happen.i had quarrels with boyfriend and my dearest friend.Baby, i am wrong to do all these to you.i know you seriously need an explaination.but i really cant picked myself up to explain to you.you are the first guy who makes me feel that i just want you and really nothing else.i know things that i do , dissapoint you and disguisted you alot.because every single word you said yesterday i really remember.you told me i dun fit to be your girlfriend , not even say to be your wife.maybe thousands of tears , thousand of sorry cant bring your good back to me.now , i dun expect anything.i just want you to stay by side closely.and stay with me.My heart felt so pain , like i never before.but i know is not as pain as yours.i just wanna say in my eyes , you are very dearly to me.like what i say , even if the whole world falls , i just wanna stay with you.you told me to stop crying.sorry i cant.maybe letting you to scold me , you can go ahead.i dun blame anyone .but to blame myself.sorry to dissapoint you.

To my dearest friend , sorry to dissapoint all of you.

-The end-

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Monday, March 1, 2010

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Once before you told me
:Cycena , dun use that account , because the seniors in the nightsangel we just offended him and he gonna band everything.dun log in the msn anymore .we create ourselves ok?.

My replied is
:Ok.

i trust every words from what you said to me without asking much.
On one faithful day i finally logged in.i saw those words had changed in the msn.
i knew something was not right.
maybe you thought that i am mabel.
but , you were wrong.

when i qsn you about it , you said you wasnt online the whole day on saturday.
including night.
but this conversation started at 11.50 in the night.
are you trying to tell me is not you?.its others?
just tell me striaght for anything.i hate lies.

whatever things you told my boyfriend i will always remember.
i promise you & you will promise me.

-The end-

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