everytime when i try my very best to be a good girlfriend . Somehow i feel that i fail to .but all my friends din think so.
Everytime when you say that i am worthless . I thought awhile and i get what you mean.i know that i am making myself to be like this.

Countless time you make mistake , from big to biggest and worst.yoou didn't even try to amend it.not even try to do anything to it.just hanging it over there.
You loved to lie.
You loved to say sorry with no meanings.
what does all this mean?.
i really dun understand.

from the day u went into army from the start.
remember what you told me?.
you say when you end your army you will marry me.
now i dun even have a mindset to grow old with you seriously.
you only make me feel that this relationship is going to fall in no time.
no longer sweet , no longer lasting anymore.
cos in my mind it only contains your lies and the fake mask on your face.


Last time when i first know you , and the now you is totally different.
sometimes i jus somehow realise our feelings towards each other is fading.
Because now ,
you can love other girl easily.

Baby , you know i somehow miss those feelings you gave me in the past which i cant even feel it now.
i really dun understand what are you thinking.
and what you really want seriously.


Now i slowly realise actually friends are already enough.

Labels: i feel so hurt for this first time/

♥ 11:51 AM

You are once the boyfriend i loved so much.
You are once the boyfriend i sacrifice for everything.
You are once the sweetest boyfriend i ever had.
You are once the boyfriend i always seen the best.
You are once the boyfriend that loves me more than anything.
You are once the boyfriend whom your body from the head to toes all belong to me.
You are once the boyfriend who will never throw me alone and left me crying there.
You are once the boyfriend who will rather meet me than anyone else.
You are once the boyfriend who does everything and belongs only to me.
You are once the boyfriend i trusted so much.
You are once the boyfriend who never make me cried so madly before.
You are once the boyfriend who will love me the most.

Now i realise there is nothing real.is all fake!
i want to hate you.but i cant.
i want to forget but i cant.
i want to pretend that nothing happen but i cant.

i still love you but i cant love you as much as before even though i promise to restart all over with you.

but i will do the best gf that you will never find flaws in me.
you will never know how hurtful it feels like to be in my situation right now.

Labels: do what ever you can to make me become what i am.

♥ 1:16 PM