Sorry readers.i realise i am damn neglecting this blog i am having.but i promise tommorow will be a very sumptous blog ;x.LOL.Because tommorow when my Bitbit book out i wan take pic pic wit him. ;x.LOL.alright , these few days been damn tired seriously.my eye bags are showing.thats a very serious case which is showing i really did not have any good sleep this few days.Now i know without a family how does it feels like to be standing alone.it feels so hurting.haiis.

Sometimes i misses my father .dreamt of him for many times.he appeared but only in my dream.

Maybe its because i am always so stubborn to not know about his words towards me and neglect him striaght and create so much stuffs.but maybe he does not treat me as his daughter anymore?.maybe bahs.;(

But i know i stiue have my mummy and baby beside me and my sisters and my close friends who care and love for me is always there for me.thanks all of you.i wun let anyone of you fall.anything i can help , i will try my best to help. :)

Baby , this time im gonna say sorry again.but i dun know hw many times can i say sorry to you.maybe one day you just leave me and i cant get the chance to say sorry to you anymore.although when i am typing this post , im controlling my tears and try to hold on to it but i failed.

Many times u told me to break with you if i am willing to , but i always say i really want to be with you.the word break does not even come across my mind before.

you always say i am just like a kid .cry cry cry and cry thats all i know.

yes , thats all i know.baby , if i dun love you , i wouldnt cry.i wouldnt even voice anything out to you.

Baby , so sorry i neglect for your everything.

i neglected your love towards me.

i neglected your feelings towards me.

i change myself suddenly to another person which you didn't expected.

i treated you coldly.

you know i also wanted to know all these reason badly for why i have became like this.

i dun wan our love to fade.

i wan our love to increase each and everyday.

so close like how we use to be.

so close like the past.

My heart feels so pain when you are sad.

My heart feels even more pain if something ever happen to you.

When aunnie aunty ask me : Cycena , do you confirmed that adrian is the guy that you want to spend your life time with?.

i hestitated awhile .

but my heart already have the answer.

the answer is yes.i wanna be with him and even for life.

Baby , i loved the way you combed my hair.

i loved the way you hug me in the nights to sleep.

i loved the way you smile at me which makes me feel so warmth.

i loved the way you sms me.

i loved the way for your everything.

i am already used to it having you by my side.

i cannot imagine one day you were not by my side.

baby , promise that i wun even have the chance to imagine alright?

i love you unconditionally.

050109.this date will last :).love you baby. :)