Simplicity.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Hey readers!.sorry that photos are not uploaded as my cable is at that fucking guy house which i work there as admin.
so be it for whatever he have said.whether fake or real , whether is clarified yet or not is not my freaking business at all.i believed that no one will be willing to work with such a BOSS.so called BOSS.BOSS so what?.big fuck?.all right?.den why BOSS can't be other thing?.why must they also be human when they claim that they are special?.PUIIS!.

This whole week having been sleeping well and it goes the same for friday which is today.Today went to buangkok clinic was nearly late for my face appointment.but luckily i got there early and yet i still must wait.and after caming out from the clinic , there goes my 147 dollars.tommorow i shall ask my boyfriend to get me a newspaper to look for job .is because cycena is BROKE!.haha.

Feeling so damn damn stress .stress about money , love life and etc.didn't know that money is so hard to come by.yet My money that i have earned is not spend on myself , is spend by my beloved boyfriend.
Firstly he told me that his birthday he wanted psp i buy.
Secondly he told me that he not enough money to use , i lend him every month.
Lastly , because of food of four chicken wings he can stare and rolled his eyes at me.
For whatever others is , i dun wish to mention.only my close friends around me know hw he treat me.

Starting like what they say is HONEYMOON.honeymoon period for three mths.i always thought my boyfriend is
-always sweet.
-always dote on me
-everything he does , he will think about me
-whatever things happen and no matter what he wil side me.
-he cannot bear to see me no money to eat , and in regardless of anything he will try all his ways to get money for me without in return.

But , Now then i realise all was very very wrong .was wrong till a extend that i am so stress for now.i couldnt believe he would do such things , but yet his character really showing for that he is like this.At first my dearie was very nosiy because she was kept pestering me to test her boyfriend whether is he the right one.and i tested .Results were unexpected.because her boyfriend didn't disappoint her in this way.but is in the other way.alright , how about the boyfriend of mine?.

Was not what i expected , but its too late already.cos jasmine has already send out and have the reply very quick from my boyfriend.Conversations with my dearie and my boyfriend over the phone.i will only state important points over here.
1)My boyfriend says that he is single in the sms.
2)My boyfriend claims that he also feel the same as jasmine that he cannot found anyone better too.
3)My boyfriend requested to meet her behind my back at yishun.
4)My boyfriend requested to go her house as she was alone and rather for a shopping at yishun.
5)My boyfriend suddenly got suspicious and told her dun msg her anymore.jasmine ask sat are they mitting still?.he say i will let you know again.
and all these i am the one who agreed to let my dearie asking jasmine to test out my boyfriend.i know i am wrong.but readers , am i very wrong?.

I was very confused and frustrated when i get to know all these freaking things in my mind.My heart wants to cry also cant.want to hate also cant.i was wordless totally.i really wanted to give up.but his more longest , hard to let go.but still , cycena is very furious and sad and everything even till today i felt so stressful.

Baby , Now i cant trust you hw i ever did.
Now , i cant forget and forgive so easily.
You need to show me inorder to gain back what we are used to be.
i think i am kind enough right?.
to give u a last chance which i am not gonna give anymore.
Baby , one day if you cant tolerate the nonsence i am having now , you are very ok to leave.

alright , i shall say till here.afterall is a word called stress and nothing else anymore.

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