This four days stay at home.
Feeling so sick.lukily no fever anymore ;)
i am having heavy and serious flu.hate it!.
its been long i have been so sick.=(

Recently my life seems to be a messed.
Staying at my boyfriend house feeling so bored!
Very restless and feeling strengthless.
Hope can recover soon and find a work soon too!:)
This year 2009 many things happen and changes in life.
So many things have been happening to me all in a sudden.
Sometimes it makes me think that i really shouldn't left my father house.
i should have stay.but those words from his mouth was so hurtful and cant be heard.

My mum says - i gave her harm
i am her burden
you know those words just makes me think so hard.
Since i gave her harm , i should stay away instead of staying.
Since i am her burden , what for increasing it?.
Sometimes it stress me till i burst out those tears from my eyes.
i even keep thinking what the hell my parents want from me.
am i just a toy in their eyes?.

Not that i prefer boyfriend which is not my husband den parents.
is because i dunno wat they always want.
its making me stress and going crazy.
i am 17 nxt year 18 , so just what my parents want from me?
My Father not willing to give me money further my studies.
so do my mum.
and what is all these ?.
Making me feeling so Stress.
i start to work , but how long can i work.

In these world , without cert is equals to without high pay.
but since my parents is nt giving me to continue study there is no point anymore.
How i wish i could touch books again ;(.

Now at least im happier a little
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