
Now everyday with My beloved boyfriend
he always love to lie to me that he is going to book in when he is not.haha!.but i love it.because its a suprise to me.how i wish he could stay outside and at home everyday just to accompany me 24 hrs.Sometimes when he is not beside me , i feel so empty.when he is fierce to me , it makes me cry.although i dun cry it out , but i cry in my heart.Sometimes i even wonder , am i important?.or am i just a companion to you?.Today we woke up and went to eat , you throw the menu at me when i did not want to answer your question.it makes me feel so different.yesterday you said that we drifted apart , isit true?.words that you once said to me , it always makes me feel so important so stress.My dearie told me that i am wrong but that does not mean i dun have a choice.but for me , i still feel that i am still at the same point.i dun wish to move at all.yesterday when i sang those songs with those words, it makes me feel so hurt .i dun know why.i really dun understand when i can stop feeling like this.after 4 yrs , once again i feel like this.once again i felt so sad.really and its true.
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