Everyone have their fault , everyone learn when they fall.Many people cried for their loved ones many time before , Many People also do silly decision because they love someone deeply.when i am trying so hard to be the best of me like my closest friend joey ,you let me feel that my whole heart just left my soul away.In my eyes , i always make wrong decision , but during the day we were together , you make me feel that i made the right decision.right to love , right to care , right to concern.But sometimes , i dun know how much i can do to be the very best gf you ever wanted.I feel that you already have doted me lesser , feeling the importance of me , is no more there.Maybe you din realise , but i do.Just that night , you make me feel like crying and just say goodbye to everyone.Once you told me those words i still remember.be it you said that i am stingy , childish and all those bad point of me.but you know i am trying to make a change in it.perharps you dunno.Maybe one day i just had to be like my closest friend , giving everything that you need , is that what you want isit?.or what?.stingy is always what you know about me , and what you think about me.Couples shouldnt count money , shouldnt for all these.but you know sometimes i wanna have a saving for my own it seems hard because i have been spending all day long.but i dun mind for all these.at least i din ask you to lend from me.in my life of 18 years , i have never spend any money on guys before , till the day i met you , you are the one who let me do that.Maybe you think is a must , it should be like that.i always do something for you and i just request something small from you , can you do it for me?.sometimes i think that the picture is too blur for me to see , and just let whatever the things be and to be there.Once Upon a time , not long ago , i betrayed your feelings.now you complaining why i din post out about how bad i treated you.are you sure?.do you want to see my previous post what i post about it?.or you would like to ask my friend about it.you know no matter how you treat me i am always still here , no matter how hurting those words are , i am always here.you know or not?.Sometimes , i feel that you really dun have the heart to continue , dun have the heart to carry on.you really made me have those thinking in my mind.what are those msges you sended me for.isit because of some reasons for you to hold on me.not that girls want to think so much.its because those actions you do make me think so.maybe in your eyes all these are just foolish act.but is ok.One day maybe i wil understand.i always like to use the same old phrase .somtimes Lies hurt more than Facts.seriously.

Soon , i am gonna find a job when i get some money again, or maybe to take my allowance for transport.i blame my parents , but it also wun make any difference for that.this is all by myself.i am big enough for everything.

Road i choose , to be with who.no matter how difficult it is , i will still walked myself and tell myself to blame no one.thats my life.

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